20

20 years ago
on a warm and golden evening in May
i stepped into a white dress
slipped my hand onto my dad's arm
and ambled down a long aisle

petals on flagstone
Trumpet Voluntary ringing throughout the chancel

gaze locked on the shining eyes
of one extremely handsome baseball player
bedecked in borrowed tie and tails

oh, were we young

23 can't even begin to imagine 43

can't see what's coming

can't look down that aisle
and peer across the years

can't understand what grace will really look like lived out
through words and actions

can't anticipate the decisions that will be made
the children who will be born
the jobs, the moves, the arguments, the ministries, the celebrations, the money problems, the snoring, the bad hair days, the in-laws, the Sunday afternoon football games, the beautiful friends who will weave in and out of our environs

23 doesn't see across that horizon 

the only real thing that 23 knew

was that
in all the years to come
she would stay

that to stay
day in and out
through easy and hard
joy and sorrow
trust and fear
would be the one thing
that 23 could promise

23 certainly didn't know
couldn't conceive
how wise she was to make that vow
with that besuited man 

but 43?
image via Sally Maxson Photography
she gets it

43 looks back and sees the wisdom of her choice

how smart she was to say yes

43
gray hair and all
sees how truly fortunate she is
to have pledged her troth
on that perfect Friday evening 

43 sees the blessings
the joy
the laughter 
the fun
the hard decisions
the faults in ourselves, covered by mercy

43 loves more deeply and more fully
because of those 20 years of marriage

where 23 was naive
43 knows

where 23 hoped
43 sees

i am so very thankful
to have walked that aisle
20 years ago

so thankful for the years the Lord has granted 
for the love that has grown beyond anything i could have promised

23 was good
but 43 is totally kickin' 23's can

happy 20th, love

wise men say
only fools rush in

but i can't help
falling in love with you.

{alison}